ask not.

i am just a human being.

stop being so proud of me.

i hope it gets better for her.

self destructive thoughts are the downfall.

ill be better then anything you see me as.

im afraid ill disappoint.

im afraid that what you say is true.

self destructive thoughts will always be the downfall.

you can only do so much.

you can do so much more.

you are the seed of your creator.

i am so much more.

i want so much more for her.

we are so alike, it scares me.

trust is everything.

i feel no trust.

or too much,



release.

Old eyes.

New sights, New sounds, New feelings.
It feels great to catch those butterfly's.
It feels like old times.

green from trees, not leaves.

Well, currently I should be working on a term paper that I am not nearly finished with, that of course is due-- TOMORROW. Yeah, procrastination. Anyways, I was just checking my email and found out that I did not get accepted for the scholarship for the summer studio at the Art institutes, bummer. In this rejection letter they pointed out that I could still join ( out of my own pocket) and of course in my mind I reply, yeah right. I do not have that kind of money what so ever. Never mind the fact I'm going to have to figure out how in hell am I ever going to go to college!? I am poor. I know that when I go to college I am going to be in huge debt the second I have established credit, I will basically have no credit. blahh.

Back to work on my term paper, all this money talk is non-sense. Just bummed and all.

time for a chill pill

I'm in dire need of some serious inspiration. I know I need to get work done but I don't want to force it all out. Tips tips tips, I need some. I am pretty tired of making things that basically turn into nothing, I feel like I do so much but in the end I have little complete. I'm pretty sure its all due to Attention Deficit. I'm looking for something or someone to open my mind and inspire me to due so much more.. am I searching too hard?

this aint a broken hearted homie singing just because he's lonely.

My week has been so crazy, and amazing. From spending time with the my dad, best friends, and getting to see my favorite bands live, I couldn't ask for a better week! The only thing that sucks is that it all went by so fast, that I almost want to cry.

Its like crowd surfing the adrenaline is so high, the feeling is amazing, but it all becomes a blur and is over in a flash.